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the-cat-at-the-theatre-door · 2 years ago

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And you know what I talked about this in the tags, but the thing is -

At the most basic level of interpretation, the Jellicle Choice is a metaphorical symbol of forgiveness. It may not begin that way, at least not in the way it’s initially framed, but as the narrative evolves, as do the narrative devices.

It’s not “who deserves to rest or ‘win’ more”, because at the end of the day, the fact of the matter is that both Grizabella and Gus the Theatre Cat are base rooted firmly in their memories of a better time yesteryear, and both suffer from “age related” (though the revival...gets a side eye from me) disability and deterioration. Both are described as “shabby and thin” and “torn and stained with sand”. Both are spoken to have been better in the prime of their lives. Palsy is a general term that refers to a whole plethora of muscle and nerve deterioration (often involving the brain - considering Gus is elderly, it may very well likely be PSP - though again with cats it’s hard to put a pin on that ).

Until the revival, Gus was presented as no more able bodied or healthy (and of course this varied in severity from performer to performer) than Grizabella was (Gr*wltiger and co. was a flashback, not occurring in the present). He was better cared for because he remained in society vs. occupying the space of the outcast in the narrative, but that doesn’t make the former fact go away. These are crucial points that can and should co-exist with themselves; it’s not who was sicker or closer to death - disability and age related deterioration exist on multiple levels, and no one is in a better camp than the other in that regard. Hell, if you want to take original revival cast interpretation into account, Gus ends up dying that night as well. It’s not about putting them in competition with one another of who is going to take the long nap first, or deserves to go to Cat Heaven more because one is somehow "closer" than the other - it’s a metaphor for how society and community can simultaneously hurt as much as it heals.

Because the choice exists in the allegory of forgiveness, it is reasonable to then assume that the one chosen must have done something that *requires* forgiveness. Gus...did nothing wrong as far as we know as an audience (interpretation notwithstanding - let’s look strictly at text here - even when Jellylorum implies that he was off drinking with his friends and perhaps frequents those circles more often than he should, it’s not framed as wrong doing). Eliminating the revival, unlike nearly the entirety of the rest of the cast, he wasn’t even *involved* in the shunning of Grizabella. Even Asparagus (if you believe him to be the same cat), is barely (if ever, depending on the staging) involved in the shunning of Grizabella due to the unavailability of the performer. Gus is brought on, with often very little idea of where he is or who is around him, and then he leaves. He does not leave any lasting impression in the community until he is *possibly* (again, depends how you read the chorus costume debacle) brought on stage at the end of the show again in time for Grizabella’s final “Memory”.

While the community at large learns the lesson that they were at fault for unfairly ostracizing one of their own, giving up any potential chance at being chosen as a further symbol of them needing to earn their own level of narrative forgiveness, Gus doesn’t need to learn that lesson. We have no idea from what is presented to us in text (again, revival not withstanding) whether Gus was ever even involved in this. He doesn’t *need* to be forgiven to achieve acceptance in society, there is nothing to forgive him *for*. Therefore, he doesn’t *require* the Choice, and he doesn’t require a do-over.

That’s also why it’s important that Grizabella is not boiled down to “being unfairly judged for having done absolutely nothing wrong” - there are very *few* real innocents in this cast of characters. Grizabella is not one of them, nor should she be treated as one of them. She deserves to be forgiven because she has recognized her mistakes and is seeking to atone for them - not because she didn't do anything. The difference between Gus and Grizabella is not who deserves the honour more - it’s who does and does not require forgiveness for their lives to come to a satisfying conclusion. Gus’ life is already over - the conclusion has long come and gone it’s just a matter of closing the curtain, so to speak. Grizabella is *just reaching* her conclusion - there’s still time before the sun rises on her and it’s too late.

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#symbolism #i've been talking about this for years - i will continue to talk about this #do i sound like a broken record? probably #i went to school for bullshit so bullshit you are going to get #extemporize back chat #the jellicle choice is - to alw's theological roots - exactly what it sounds like #like as much as i don't want to put any stock in that it's there #the thing is too like while i do not like this interpretation this idea that gus is beloved by the tribe is also a semi new thing #he may be *respected* but plenty of performers act as though gus going on and on with himself is a waste of their time #even *jelly* is often played as the fully put upon nurse #it's symbolic of how the elderly are often *tolerated* in their existence in western society #though further still if he is just a cat who lives in a theatre chances are he’s not getting expensive vet bills taken care of in the 30s o #the 80s #if the cat starts shaking that's a oh well he was a good cat - it's not an if it's a when #regardless of who gets chosen the fact is gus and grizabella are in a state of dying #grizabella is just coming at the tail end of having realized in death that she wishes to atone #anyway i'm just going to hold the elder cats in my arms #because every time it comes up it's like *yes* i get the point and interpretation and agree to an extent but you need to think #in narrative structures and the limitations of bubbled story telling #but also you don't have to put one cat down to elevate the other #also since i've heard this before *no* i don't think grizabella is the same age as gus #age related disability can hit as early as the 50s or 60s - what i want to know is that why when i say #grizabella is meant to be an older woman some people's minds *immediately* jump to 80s or so #like that says something a little skewed about how you view aging women doesn't it?

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toytulini · 1 year ago

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listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good'#like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches'#'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty?#you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

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autogeneity · 10 months ago

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getting increasingly annoyed about instructor saying I shouldn't compete in sparring

#it's so frustrating!! to go to a competition do a pattern and then sit there for 6 hours while everyone else does things #and like #it would be maybe okay if he gave me like a threshold of some kind #like ok in this much time or when you have done/are able to do X or when you are at X belt or whatever #just something! you know?#ntch #m #whining #tbc I still suck I would absolutely get wrecked #well today I would've been against a friend from our own school if I'd taken part and he probably wouldn't kill me but generally #he's brilliant and still went through it lol so I would probably be pretty fucked #however I still want to.#I mean I'd do badly but I don't actually think the risk of being like. maimed. is as high as instructor seems to think #and like there is another guy would fare similarly to me so it's very bullshit that I get treated differently imo #I think my bones are fine. probably.#I lift a lot I've been on T for almost 2 years I think it is fine.#a year ago I understood but the more time passes the more it becomes unfair

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floral-hex · 1 year ago

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So this chick has been on-and-off again stalking me since high school. I could go into paragraphs of detail (I was about to), but no one wants to read all of that. Suffice to say, I guess she’s had some kind of crush on me for about 15-20 years or so (why??), and every few years it seems she pops up somewhere contacting me to try to persuade me to give her a chance. I should mention we never talked in high school, I actively avoided her, told her I didn’t like her, etc. nothing doing.

Anyway, somehow she’s been on one of my social media pages and saw I was having a hard time lately, so she found my phone number (what?? I hate that you can just find that online) and texted me out of the blue yesterday. Usual protocol is ignore and block so I don’t piss off an unstable person, but they decided to be gross, so

I wasn’t planning on posting anything about this before. If they were creeping around on my pages, mentioning it would only feed into them. Maybe. I don’t know. But this just kind of made me really uncomfortable and their response was shitty. I could have been a lot meaner. I wanted to be. But whatever, that wouldn’t have helped. So I just blocked them and hope that this time it sticks. If they see this, then hey… not cool.

#and then I post this for what? attention?#I dunno… this just made me feel really shitty #like… you can’t just leave me alone?#you know I’m having a rough go at it and you think this is the perfect time to insert yourself into my life?#I don’t care about your puss!#I really really have to reiterate I have never ever had a real conversation with this person #we’ve never talked or hung out and I always avoided them #god this is such high school bullshit. I’m in my fucking 30s. I don’t need this teenage drama.#and I want to imagine all this as just someone who never grew up buuut…#they found my phone number. they went looking for my personal information. they’ve been stalking at least one of my social media pages.#probably twitter but who knows maybe here too #this is like… 15-20 years of this. why? why are you still obsessed with this?#and maybe these texts don’t seem so bad but I’ve had to block them on Facebook too #and that was after my ex and I broke up a few years back #it’s like she waits until my life gets extra shitty and then tries to convince me that we’re old friends & she wants to date finally #fuckin… just… not really cool ya know. damn.#stalker lady… I am not worth all this pining. just move on.#lol but I have been saying “my puss is so wet right now’ to myself all day so that’s a positive #anyway… sorry to post this bullshit. just wanted to vent.#sorry if you read all of this #text

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badolmen · 8 months ago

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So funny how trauma will just kick you in the fucking teeth with the most random triggers.

#ra speaks #personal #watched the most recent quintin reviews vid which like yeah I went in with expectations of the content #and it’s not like I actively avoid stuff that depicts/discusses abuse I’ve been going to therapy long enough to know my most sensitive #triggers and stuff. but…idk something abt when he got to the drake bell section just set me off something fierce.#I’m all nerves and stress and self loathing/misplaced guilt from my own past bullshit #like brain can we please cool it we’ve been over this for years why you freaking the fuck out now? (I mean. logically. I know why #and how trauma works and that I’m just having emotional flashbacks but still. ugh.)#brain please be real niceys to me I have a meeting in an hour we cannot be having a panic attack.#you’re safe you’re good it wasn’t your fault etc etc can we please go back to being an adult more than a decade past all that? please???#survived my meeting so I’m gonna vent abt this a bit more bc. let’s be real.#I don’t rememember a solid 3 years of my adolescence and it fucks w me sometimes.#I remember things before 4th grade. I remember 4th grade. then bam I’m in 8th going to high school. and like #I know logistically what happened. I know emotionally I hated/was so fucking scared of [redacted] until I finally left that fucking school.#it’s just. frustrating bc if I remembered maybe I’d feel more justified letting myself get upset abt it. but I don’t so suck it up buttercup #it probably wasn’t even that bad if you don’t actually remember it so pull it together.#hell for all you know it had nothing to do with [redacted] and you were just on bad meds/depressed and forgot three solid years of your life #after meeting [redacted] <- I am not convincing myself unfortunately.

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godblooded · 2 years ago

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i just gotta say peoples' obsessions with writing toxic relationships just concerns the shit outta me on this hellsite.

#ooc. your local bodega kat.#[everyone: i love complex relationships! what everyone means: couples fighting is normal! so if they're horrendous to each other #sometimes it's normal!!#couples fight like... of course. it's unhealthy NOT to fight. but there's a level where it's....uhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH and some of what's said #or done that people condone on here is wild. if i had a nickel for every time i saw someone say their character was a wonderful spouse and #then display like 10 reasons why they're covertly emotionally or verbally abusive. the rpc has such a tendency to refer to dv in one #specific term when it comes to ic ships and it's always physical but everything else is 'complex' and man that's worrying. see also: why #i was taught in grad school never to teach streetcar with marlon brando because students excuse him immediately due to his looks and his #bullshit angst. it's alarming as fuck. coming from parents who were sometimes physically abusive (to me and each other) like... this also #needs to be recognized in self-critical media. there's so much shit that needs evaluating. and it's not like i've never written a toxic #ship. i wrote the fucking WORST on at one point because i was too chickenshit to get alana out of it. and it ended in her being DESTROYED.#you know. like those kind of relationships tend to end in. like. my ex-father beat the fuck out of a dude in a bar who hit on my mom and #then when he found out the guy died a day later it was military or jail and he went military. and then my mom took him BACK. this is REAL #LIFE SHIT. writing it is virtually incredibly depressing and writing it without making clear it's fucked up is worse. whether you've been #through it or not. in that case: why even. shit hurts enough when you go through it. why would you want to vicariously go through it #being a fake person if there was no way to turn the outcome through healing and positive growth. sorry for being an optimist basically.]#domestic violence mention /#domestic abuse mention /#abuse mention /#murder mention /#[i'm just thinking back on the most toxic fucking verse i ever had and how glad i am said person and i no longer speak.]

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shopzone462 · 1 year ago

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listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

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get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good'#like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches'#'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty #you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2023

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icharchivist · 2 years ago

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also it’s 100% on me on this one for the wording but when i say i have “memories” of things that happened in the past (definition of “the past” being either before the last past year or the last past month, still unsure) i generally mostly remember like. vibes. I remember some vague big events here and there if i try to remember them hard from the vibes alone but tbh i don’t fully trust most of my recollection of everything. it’s not like i don’t remember anything either but it’s mostly that most things are foggy ALKJDLKFJDFKL

memory bad 😔

#like it's so. weird.#i did try to answer the previous ask remembering some big incidents in question #but then i had like. One big vibe around One... vague topic? i remember things went downhill and it was unpleasant?#but i feel like if i try to elaborate on that it gets a little too disjuncted ig #i mean it's petty old fandom stuff so in there i get why brain went 'not that important bye'#though considering fandom stuff are still clearer to me than like. stuff that went on at school and stuff #or the stuff i know i actively burried it's just #huh! vibes.#memory sad actually i shouldn't even hype up the vibes i remember at this point if my brain goes 404 not found when asked to elaborate #like i see my memory as like. i have a folder in my computer titled 'section of life'#if you go inside there's a folder for anything big with like a vague name like 'incident n1 about the bullshit'#and then you go inside this one folder and it's empty or the there's one text file that's corrupted #and one memo note with like some vague elements in #like depends on most things and everything but u get the imagery #ichatalks

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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cosmo wanda i fucking wish students understood that universities have limited reach and that public silence does not automatically mean no action is being taken internally and that the decisions of collectives / institutions do not reflect the decisions of all of the people within them (e.g. all faculty staff and administrators within an institution) etc etc. god DAMN it to hell. you people (not anyone reading this im saying this as if im talking to the student body at my school) look so fucking stupid @ing the social media accounts of distinct departments like that’s actually going to do anything. you think they ARENT doing anyrhing????? that’s probably ALL they’re focusing on rn and they’re spending days carefully gathering information so they can share it. and shit is hitting the fan in MULTIPLE areas rn if you haven’t noticed and also it’s winter fucking break so no one is even supposed to be working anyway. so what is wrong with you. why are you fucking making demands. getting a college to finally post an update about something is not the same as cancelling someone on twitter and the fact that so many of you think it is is indicative of how SICK our society has become. PLEASE calm down.

#purrs #literally about to start screaming. people have been so fucking stupid this year. that is all i am going to say.#and ik this bears a weight being a staff member here now but i was a student 6 months ago and years ago i used to do the same stupid shit an #and then i went to the retreat and learned that universities are communities made of people and that i can change the world by talking to #stakeholders and being strategic and patient and having civic courage and building relationships. and now i spend my life trying to teach #other ppl how to do that. so seeing students WHO I KNOW ARE AWARE THAT THIS ISNT THE WAY doing this makes me want to start SCREAMING. like #it was all for nothing. the HOURS of workshops you went through learning how to actually make change and ‘demand’ change and now you’re #engaging in this edgy bullshit. i want to curl up in a ball and/or jump out the window rn. sorry #delete later #work tag 2 #this is literally the 5th or 6th incident in 2022 and i know it’s more complicated than that and yes there are genuine wrongdoings the #school / depts and individuals within it have committed. but also the knee jerk reaction of students to instantly turn into a mob and start #saying u*** does nothing u*** doesn’t care about it’s students is like are you KIDDING MEEEEEEEEE. ARE YOU KIDDING ME. how about you talk to #x person who i know firsthand is trying to navigate this issue and suppprt students. how about you join x committee that just made progress #in this area. how about you get offline and go touch grass and realize your COMMUNITY isn’t out to get you!!!!#institutions are not inherently bad lol. institutions are communities. communities are POWER. if i could send one message to everyone on the #planet i think it would be that or at least include that bc i would also want to say stuff abt how we are real and human and alive together #etc etc. but that is like. something so many ppl do not see. being part of a university is POWER. being a student is POWER. so use it for #good!!!!! join committees! set up meetings with admin!!!!! join student gov!! this learned helplessness of @ing the school is NOT THE WAY #not when you have tools and relationships at your disposal to actually make a sustainable long term difference. what are you waiting for! th #the whole world is yours!! it’s at your fingertips! do you feel it? do you see it?

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 years ago

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I think out of all the characters I have that I don’t know what to do with, Em and Lawrence are the most frustrating to me because they’re so developed and I like them so much but I have solidly no idea what story to put them in

#like when i first conceived of them they were just charles’s schoolfriends lol. but then they grew backstories and personalities #and then i started thinking like ‘well why are they even friends when they’re so different? why would em who is quite moral be friends with #these people’ and then i was like ‘he’s in love with lawrence. obviously’ and Then because i like em i had to make it requited. obviously.#and now it’s like. i have these men. and i also have perry and quincy and august (and a few others but no one is ready for that conversation #in the same universe. and charles isn’t even really in their universe anymore?? like he can be & i still headcanon that he and em would be #besties but he and lawrence would be frenemies. because actually charles would want to fuck em and em would be oblivious #but lawrence Would Not but also wouldn’t be able to piece together at first why he was angry about it #so like. there’s that? but that isn’t really a story. that’s just some bullshit #like i don’t have a genre or anything for them. i mean i have a setting. i know where they went to school. but do i want to write a boarding #school story at the age of 27? no. no i do not #and like for some reason (in my mind at least) these two just do not work in any kind of fantasy setting. like they repel vampires #and werewolves and angels and any of my other usual fallbacks. it doesn’t work #it either has to be a period piece or d*rk *cademia as much as i hate that term for what the internet has done to it #like those are the vibes. or crime?? but i also want romance #i honestly feel like the most likely thing these two would do that’d lead to a story is lawrence would murder somebody #and em would immediately unprovoked offer a fake alibi and when questioned about what he and lawrence were doing together panic and say ‘sex #and THEN they’d have to pretend to be fucking to get the police off their back. like that’s so Them it hurts #lawrence is like ‘you realise you’re an accessory now’ em’s like ‘i don’t care. if you’re going to prison i’m coming with’#they are a package deal. they are so disgustingly codependent it’d be absolutely miserable to be in the same room as them #and i love them <3 #personal

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anothermonikan · 3 months ago

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Man high school was fucked up. You ever think about that. Thank fucking god I'm not in high school anymore

#Sorry I need to turn a distraction video on or smth because my mind came back to #The very first experience I had of high school #And like my father had just dropped me off right. Yknow. Big massive new place I hadn't been before #And we went into an assembly hall right and my father called me like 5 minutes after #My phone was on silent and I took it out of my pocket for what. 5 seconds to dismiss the call.#Yknow a call from my parent who probably just wanted to make sure I got in okay #And in that 5 seconds a teacher just came over and took the phone off me #And then later on in the assembly the speaker was like 'We have a strict phone policy.'#'You're not allowed to use them outside of break unless explicitly asked' and the fucking.#Teacher who practically snatched my damn phone of me was like #'I have caught 5 students on their phones already. This is unacceptable behaviour in high school and you should already know'#Like. Holy shit I got it out for 5 damn seconds to dismiss a call from a parent who just wanted to make sure I was okay :sob: I was 12 yknow #Just something so. Fucked up about that. That's not a fucking expectation in the real world #Yeah don't be distracted by your phone while doing work in class but it was nothing like that :sob:#I'm willing to bet that most of the people who got their phone confiscated in that assembly were of similar circumstances to me #Yknow. Worried parents who just dropped their 12 year old off to a big unfamiliar place for the first time calling #You could've taught that lesson in the classroom if someone was actually distracted on their phone. Come on now #What Is with some fucking primary school and high school teachers having absolute power trips over actual children #Awful. I was thinking about it because my younger sibling has just gone back school #And their in their last year of primary school and they where telling me about like all the bullshit they're pulling #And I guess I just. Worry a bit. Because high school is genuinely a little bit fucking traumatic #I tell them all the time that most of the rules they set up in primary school and high school are kinda bullshit anyways #And to follow them simply to not get in trouble. But don't let them dictate how you act forever #Because you go through the whole of high school being told what to do by people who usually view you as a lesser being to them #And then you get to college and everything changes and it's gonna be weird as fuck finally being viewed as an equal #...especially if you're like me and engrained rules way too seriously #Sorry this is breaking the no emotional posting after 10pm rule but I think I can stand by this one #Okay I've made 6 begillion grammar errors I'm on mobile I can't change em #To everyone currently in high school: please fucking survive. It get's better. I prommy you #android.txt

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bean-pronounced-bawn · 3 months ago

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I don't know why I keep expecting people to be able to do their jobs but I am always proven wrong and I'm mildly having a full meltdown rn because I need documents sent very far away literally by the end of the month and based on when they said 1) the documents would be shipped (1-5 business days) and 2) the documents would be notarized (7-10 business days) it should have been done at least a full week ago but it's not and the document hasn't even been shipped to the notarization place and because I have nothing else to do at work right now and nothing to keep me distracted like I've been trying to hard to do for the past week I'm having a panic attack about this and I know I've called and emailed a combined five times already about this but I'm gonna have to call again to see where they're at because I don't think I'll last the weekend without some kind of update if I'm already having a panic attack today